This the reason why we are meeting here: to see that you are not a victim of the circumstances of your life. You are just passing through them. You can pass through them in many different ways. With sincerity and consciousness you will discover that you are timeless. Then you are free, liberated, self-realized. Nothing can disappoint you because you have no hopes. Nothing can scare you because you are not attached to anything that you can lose. You are absolutely free, a here and now walking phenomena, no but, not a single exception. All buts are your insecurity to be that and to let go and to disappear. You will not be able to take yourself to truth. Once you let go of the ‘I’, the personality, truth will be found. Truth will take the personality, the ‘I’, the seeker. Your life will not be perfect, never, lucky us. But it will be lived consciously with a wide view, the depth of eternity, the depth of God, not the surface of ‘I’, ego, self-interest. Then silence will penetrate. And I told you if you do disappear into this silence, the rest is not needed. There is nothing to understand, there is nothing to figure out, no formulas on how to live. All those things are just grasping. Life is not mathematics. That is the jump from mind to no-mind, not preparing towards the next step, but being total in this very step, and life will take care of you. A person gave me a letter in Satsang in Israel, a quote from Thomas Jefferson who was an American president some hundred and something years ago. I can’t remember the quote exactly, but surely the essence of it. It is beautiful to see that once the politicians were a bit more wise. It says: “I asked for prosperity and God gave me work to do. I asked for love and God gave me people with problems to help. I asked for courage and God gave me fearful situations to solve. My prayers have been answered. I received nothing I wanted, but everything I needed.” Realize that your prayers have always been answered. Not the prayers of the mind but the longing of your being. It is already fulfilled. It is already content. It might not be perfect. That is the beauty of it.

The breakthrough in meditation is happening when you enjoy to be who you are and you enjoy it unconditionally, not because you met a beautiful girl or boy, and not because you ate a good meal and it delighted your senses. The world does not give you any excuse. Also there the ego can enter and the meaning of sitting here in meditation can be will power – ‘’I will succeed, I will prove, I will achieve what I came here to do”. So you can sit in front of the wall full of this will power, and that gives you the meaning of sitting there. But that is not meditation. Meditation is resting in that space of simply being yourself, not trying to achieve it and not waiting for something to release you out of it. When you have an idea, a wrong idea about what meditation is and you are aiming for that idea, which is wrong, you overlook that which you are already. Resting in that which you are already is meditation. But that can be overlooked because there is an idea hiding in the unconscious. It is a simple state of being that our complicated personalities cannot figure out. It is not about creating a beautiful movie or becoming a movie critic or what kind of movies are passing in your mind. This is not the work of meditation. It is when you sit in the cinema and suddenly, no matter what movie is projected on the screen – boring, horror, interesting, a thriller – suddenly you lose interest in the movie. Suddenly it comes in a moment that there is a mysterious pull within you to move inwards and to rest, awakened rest. A rest in which we don’t need to consume life, but a rest in that moment. You don’t need stimulation of the senses. You don’t need to chase after the dreams. You can look at this as your natural willingness to be who you are, unconditionally, totally, without any effort to go somewhere, without any need to accomplish something, without any wish to chase after anything. You rest in that which you are and you are totally present, in the here and now. Discover that flame within you. And suddenly there is no bell, there is no gong. That is the timeless moment of meditation, timeless because you are not waiting for something to finish. That is when expansion is happening. It is a state of grace. If you stay with will power, the gong will always be there, ticking. A little while longer and I have some break. A little while longer and I will be free. But you are not in a prison. Awakening is when your eyes are opening to see how liberated you are, how joyful it is to dissolve into this moment and to be totally present, not through the stimulation of the senses, but with expansion of consciousness, beyond dreams, fantasies, expectations. Rather than wait for the meditation to finish, find the crack in that body/mind mechanism, the crack, the door that leads you – even if just for a single moment but a moment that becomes eternity – the crack that leads you to total peace, resting in the now where you are not doing meditation, but when you are being meditation.

You can interpret different situations in your life and give them titles such as problems, but this is your interpretation. When you look at things from the silence, from no mind, they are only situations. Whether your mind is happy with them or not, they are only situations. When you become silent you are no longer a victim of life, you are flowing with life and there is no more interpretation of life as a problem. If you don’t have a problem to solve, you might forget yourself and dissolve and become empty. Those problems are actually necessary for the self, for the ego to exist. It helps it to focus on something to grasp, to deal with something, and the so-called problems give the ego a substance that it doesn’t existentially have. So if you don’t have a problem, your mind disappears. I want you to know that the biggest addiction that we have as human beings is negativity. We need to consume negativity in some form, just so our ego will stay alive. And interpreting our life, or situations in our life, as a problem is creating negativity to consume. In a total surrendering to life suchness is happening. Suchness, life is, free of interpretations. All the violence that is happening in the world is happening because of this addiction. People cannot admit that, so they give all this violence, many other excuses. Sometimes those excuses even in the name of god but they are always excuses. The real reason is that in the moment you don’t have a problem, you stop to exist as a self, as an illusion of “I am separate from this”. When you become free of this addiction the gate is widely open. When you become free of this need to interpret reality and to let it be raw, naked, then you also become naked from the personality, from the ego. I am not telling you to seek to think positive, this kind of effort to control your thoughts has no transformation. It is simply suppression of negative thoughts. But if you look at yourself you can recognize a strong pattern to solve problems that does not exist yet.

Doubting, challenging whatever state you are in is healthy, is good. Asking yourself whether you are sincere within, is also healthy – when you look within and you know as far as you can see you are absolutely sincere. That is what I am asking from you. If you will go further ahead, you will be able to see that in some things there is no sincerity. Take care of this, make sure again and again that you are moving into sincerity within your action, your thoughts, all kinds of manipulations. Make sure you are sincere about your motives. Understand, that a sincere person will take responsibility. Responsibility is a consequence of sincerity. I am provoking many people’s state of being when seeing them, or not seeing them, when they are coming to me or not coming to me, I am provoking this state. Many things are challenged just by this work I choose to do. I am an excellent excuse for many people’s anger. A sincere person will take responsibility for their own anger and will not use another person as an excuse. A sincere person has no excuses. They are always looking within for the reason. I have provoked many people’s relaxation, their confident state of meditation and understandings. Many times this was seen as, “it’s him, it’s because of him”, etc. It is not so. Whenever someone came here, I suggested to develop sincerity, grow into sincerity and take responsibility. This anger you are showing is not mine, it is yours. Do not escape from it, face it, be it. It will transcend itself and you will have clarity to see through it. A sincere person will take responsibility for whatsoever is happening to him. He knows that it needs to be there. He will not relate it to other people or will use excuses. See it with relationships; see it with your daily life in all varieties and in all situations, searching for the source to see if there is an ego. Sincerity has to be there in order to find truth because only a sincere person will turn all the stones within his mind. He will be so sincere that he will not leave one stone unturned, unrevealed. Often people lie to themselves even if they choose to speak the truth, because they don’t have the capacity to see the truth at that moment. They don’t have the capacity to see the jealousy, to see that actually this anger belongs to me. Actually, I am still in a state where I’m not where I thought I am. I’m not who I thought I am. To take responsibility for it is a consequence of sincerity. As long as everything is working with cooperation – emotion, thoughts and habits, which are actions – it is very difficult to approach you; it is very secure for the ego, the mind. The way to approach is to slash habits and patterns. And it needs to be supported parallel with much sincerity about these things. I will nag you again and again. Once I will see the sincerity within you, that you are slashing the habits yourself, it will lead you to truth sooner or later. Then most of my work is done. Once sincerity is there, truth is granted.

One moment of meditation; One moment of deep silence, of sheer understanding. All those moments of intensity in the past; All those insights that you have gathered. One moment of silence will take all of those and will make out of them a symphony of wisdom, a melody, a presence. All those scattered fragments, glimpses. One moment of meditation, of deep silence, will give a meaning to all of those fragments. It will collect them together. It will create a certain thread, a certain continuation that transforms the division with reality. It is like different notes, separated they have no meaning, they are dull, boring. To bring them together in the right order, they become music. They have a meaning. All those fragments of experiences you have in your life, have only domestic significance to that moment when you experienced it. One moment of meditation, one moment of silence and all those moments are getting a universal meaning, are getting a presence. It becomes a reflection of your Buddhahood.

Clouds come and go, the sky is always there. When you identify with the clouds, they become more important than the sky. When you identify with your desires, your hopes, your expectations - to fulfill them becomes more important than to be in the here and now. That is the sky: To be silently here now, to remain present in the present moment. Where are you going? What do you want to get? What is it going to give you? What do you hope for, desire for? What are you afraid of? A bunch of clouds that you cannot see through. And if you could see through them, all your so-called problems and so-called tensions would fall like dead leaves from a tree. Because you will find the most and the only significant thing. You will find truth. You will find the source. Before of this you live in a conflict. Sometimes this conflict disappears, but only for a moment. Because unless you are totally here and now, it is a conflict. You might not even be aware of it. The here and now is something that exists, and if you live in the future or the past, you are causing a conflict with the present moment. This present moment is your home. Here and now, everlasting here and now. This is where you can rest. Here and now your mind cannot function. What about the future? what about the past? The mind asks those questions. You stay in that very moment, not violently, but stay in it with your consciousness. See how the mind is traveling. All your thoughts are either in the past or in the future or in another place. Never here and now. And you are not here for a very long time, 90 years? This is not very long. So to miss those 90 years is a kind of a pity, to keep on missing the present moment, isn’t it?